Though we may believe we confirm our
existence on our own, in truth it is sustained within the gaze and memory of
others. Through the twin themes of “existence” and “memory,” this
poem reflects on what anchors a human life. In particular, it quietly portrays
a person who, while facing the anxiety of fading cognition and forgetting,
seeks to rediscover the self that once surely existed in the past. It suggests
that existence is not confined to the present moment, but continues to dwell
within the memories of others.
“Dwelling in Memory”
Proof of existence is granted by others.
Even if I deny myself, I remain within
them.
To question the worth of existence is an
unwritten taboo.
It denounces the arrogance that selects and
discards human beings.
If one does not awaken to one’s own existence, one is buried in time.
If one cannot recognize others, one is
isolated.
Through memory, existence is acknowledged.
Within past recollections, existence is
found.
The awareness of being now can only work in
the present.
It lives together with the torment of
forgetting.
At times confused, at times attacking, one
confirms the self.
The face of the heart gives birth to
suspicion and anxiety.
The weakening power to perceive longs for
peaceful days.
Memories revive the fact that one once
existed.
Feeling keenly the bewilderment of those
around, one lives on.
Piecing together fragments of happiness,
one lives on.
Embracing the joyful moments that dwell in
memory, one lives on.